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name: Morgan Bronwyn Reid Rowe
aka: Riko, Morg, Trin, Rainfall
email: rainfall@canada.com
age: 17
born: March 31, 1986
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picture: Kurapika
fandom: Hunter x Hunter
title: and lyrics from Inori, Kurapika's song (animelyrics.com)
other: brushes by Miss M
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song: out of reach, gabrielle
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anime/manga: Naruto, DNAngel, Hunter x Hunter, Digimon, Prince of Tennis, Saiyuki, Yami no Matsuei, One Piece, Shaman King, Hikaru no Go, Black Cat, 666 Satan, Whistle, +Anima, Bleach, Fullmetal Alchemist, Gravitation, Inuyasha
games: FFVII, FFIX, FFX, FFT, Chrono Cross, SSX Tricky, DOA3, Legend of Mana, Arcanum
music: Linkin Park, Bond, Evanescence, Ayumi Hamasaki, Gackt, Malice Mizer, Barenaked Ladies, Arrogant Worms, Lifehouse, Adam Pascal, Matt Caplan, Tommy Körberg, Luna Sea, Michelle Branch, Tsunami Bomb
TV: The West Wing, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, CSI: Crime Scene Investigation, Undergrads
movies: The Boondock Saints, The Importance of Being Earnest, The Newsies, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead, Spirited Away, Pirates of the Caribbean, Fight Club
books: The Vor Game (Lois McMaster Bujold), A Civil Campaign (Lois McMaster Bujold), Memory (Lois McMaster Bujold), Silverthorn (Raymond Feist), Darkness at Sethanon (Raymond Feist), Zodiac (Neal Stephenson), Tunnels of Blood (Darren Shan), Prisoner of Azkaban (JK Rowling)
boys: Akira (HnG), Hikaru (HnG), Satoshi (DNAngel), Daisuke (DNAngel), Dark (DNAngel), James (Krondor), Dashel (Krondor), Locklear (Krondor), Gregor (Vorkosigan), Draco (HP), Remus (HP), Sirius (HP), Dilandau (Esca), Koushiro (Digi), Ken (Digi), Daisuke (Digi), Taichi (Digi), Touma (Gravi), Sasuke (Naruto), Neji (Naruto), Gaara (Naruto), Roger (RENT), Mark (RENT), Kurapika (HxH), Killua (HxH), Fuji (PoT), Hisoka (Yami), Eriol (CCS), Duo (Gundam Wing), Loki (MaLoki), Thor (MaLoki), Freyr (MaLoki), Heimdall (MaLoki)
couples:
Akira/Hikaru, Satoshi/Daisuke, Draco/Harry, Harry/Ginny, Remus/Sirius, Dilandau/Van, Koushiro/Taichi, Miyako/Iori, Ken/Daisuke, Taichi/Yamato, Sasuke/Naruto, Roger/Mark, Hisoka/Tsuzuki, Duo/Heero, Mayura/Freyr, Mayura/Thor, Thor/Yamino
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Thursday, October 30, 2003
04:37 p.m.
Well, I managed, about a half-hour ago, to work myself it to a nice little fit of depression over a, relatively, bad mark I got in one of my classes. A relatively bad, really IMPORTANT mark. Since then, I've decided I'll go talk to Mr. Meng about it tomorrow (since a good deal of this depression is due to the fact that I don't DESERVE THAT MARK AT ALL) and written a ficbit about it. Of course, I'm pretending it's about Kurapika, but it really isn't.
Have also come to the conclusion that I must put an end to my love affair with the word "sometimes" as it doesn't appreciate me and is always putting me down.
Sometimes
(dedicated, unlovingly, to my usually-great history teacher and, lovingly, to my friends)
Sometimes he wishes they would all just shut up and leave him alone. Sometimes he wishes he could just rot in peace.
Only so much time can pass before a corpse begins to rot, and he's been dead long enough that he can't understand why he hasn't fallen apart yet. Or maybe he has, and he just hasn't noticed.
Sometimes he wonders why they still put their faith in him when he's proven so many times that he's only it for himself. Sometimes he wonders why he still hasn't walked away. And, sometimes he wonders if falling would hurt less if it didn't mean taking others with him.
Only, he thinks, having others with him when he falls is the only reason he has to keep getting back up.
Sometimes he wants to scream so loud. And, sometimes he wants forget it ever happened at all. And, sometimes all he can do is cry. And, sometimes he knows he's finished. And, sometimes he feels like it'll never end.
Only, it's so much rarer these days that he'll get hurt or angry, and it never lasts long when he does.
Sometimes his stomach churns, and he wonders if that's what it feels like to rot from inside out. Sometimes his chest squeezes in like giants are pounding on it, and he wonders if it's worth going through with it all. Sometimes he just wants it to stop, so he can breath, and he can rest, and, maybe, he can live for once. Or maybe not.
Only, then, Gon is there. And Killua. And Leorio. And, he thinks that maybe he can get through this if he holds on just a bit tighter and just a bit longer. He's not really certain he believes that, but they seem to, so maybe he'll learn.
Sometimes, life doesn't seem quite so bad. And he's pretty sure that's their fault.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
05:00 p.m.
I've decided that God created two genders to avoid pronoun confusion. Yet another reason I'm going to hell.
Masks
Sometimes, on the few occasions when he's all alone, Springer likes to put on the mask of God the Father. There's something appealing about the lines of its cheekbones, too long for his child's face, and the golden shine of its cracking paint. Or maybe it's simply the seduction of a part he'll never be able to play.
He doesn't have the height for it or the majesty. Stephen doesn't have the talent, but Springer will never say that out loud. He'll sit back, in his itchy yellow wig, and watch as Stephen struts about the stage in a senseless drunken stupor. And he'll keep his mouth shut because if Stephen ever got really mad, he'd be too little to fight back.
Sometimes he wonders if he'll ever grow as tall as Straw, whether he'll ever have his skinny height or his long, pallid fingers or the shallow length of his neck or the faint inset line of his spine, creasing his back all the way down.
And then he thinks that maybe its better that he's himself after all. "So warm," Straw had said the first time, and it's really for the best because Straw is so much like ice that Springer can feel the warmth being sucked out of him when they lie together.
"So warm," Straw had said when Springer had first told him he wanted him. And Straw had smiled a smile crooked at the edges and made the sign of acceptance. But it was jerky and unpolished, and his eyes looked nervous. Unsure. Frightened.
So when Springer had taken his hand and felt the long fingers twine with his and the soft down hair brush his cheek, he'd learned something: regardless of which parts he gets to play, it’s the times when the masks are off that really matter.
Let there be Light
Sunday, October 26, 2003
01:06 p.m.
Stupid. Of all the entries to get lost, it HAD to be the fanfic one. Stupid. (Grr...)
In other news, I just finished watching episode 21 of MaLoki and can't believe how teary it has made me. I didn't even LIKE the little dork all that much (and I certainly didn't understand what those little gum drops he was carrying around this episode were. *shakes head* Odin, Odin: what were you thinking?), but he will be missed.
Now excuse me while I go weep and eat chocolate ice cream until episode 22 downloads.
Monday, August 11, 2003
01:29 p.m.
The mark, I have decided, of a great (not good, but really fucking incredible) fanfic author is when you read stuff (a series, a pairing) you don't know anything about just to read something they wrote.
herongale does it for me. So does Whitney R. And now, apparently, D too. I'm totally in love with The Conscience of the King even though I've always looked at Rufus/Reeve and nodded politely.
Great fanfic authors get me every time. Whatever that means.
Just a thought...
Sunday, August 10, 2003
10:08 a.m.
What is it about Santa Fe? When someone wants to go somewhere else in a muscial, why is it always there?
"We'll open up a restaurant in Santa Fe."
"And I'm on the train that's bound for Santa Fe."
"And leave on a bus back to old Santa Fe."
Geez.
Attack of the 2AM Conversation
Friday, August 8, 2003
11:07 a.m.
Okay, that's a lie. It was 12:00 AM, and it only *barely* qualified as a conversation.
Tracy is playing a very, very dangerous game. Dangerous. I post this more as a warning to all who know me that to attempt to beat me in this subject is not only IMPOSSIBLE but done at your OWN RISK.
Lesbian S&M, puh-lease! Permanent erections and people being tied to beds. May I say yawn? ;)
Tracy, dear, tread carefully, when it comes to written porn, I - am - the - master. And I swear, I'll pull out Trowa/Lions if you push me too far. :D:D:D
Porn Wars, Episode 1: The Phallic Menace. *cackles*
Camping
Monday, July 28, 2003
01:34 p.m.
Back from a camping trip. Turned out to be yet another reminder of why I must STOP GOING ON THESE THINGS.
I couldn't sleep. I was cold. These drunk pre-college boys kept putting lawn chairs in canoes and rowing around. I did get to spend time with my cousin Gwyn, though. That was MUCH fun.
However, I am very happy to back home in front of my computer.
In other, less important news, I went on a fanlist splurge, worked on a new website (food of love! rawr!) and drew some pictures. I'm working on drawing the entire cast of that fantasy story me and the Freaks are writing. So far, I've only got my character, Doku, and Susan's character, Elira. :D
Ore wa ninja de yo!
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
12:30 p.m.
You are NEJI!
Proud. Driven. You fix on your objective and stick to it. Some people may see you as cold or even cruel, but they just can't see past your prickly surface. At heart, you care about your companions and may be a little more sensitive than you'd like to admit.
Which NARUTO character are you?
*big grin* I love you, Neji!
2nd verison!
Friday, July 18, 2003
02:03 p.m.
So I changed the layout. Why? Because the other one was ugly, oh-BOY was it ugly, and because I've been on a website making spree. I can't help it; it's - so - much - fun.
I whipped up a Naruto site for my sister this aft and am considering making one for myself. I need some sort of site to draw in visitors. Although, no I don't really, but it'd still be nice.
*grins* Interested in getting a free webdesign by me? Wanna provide me with a source of amusement at no cost to yourself? Hit me!
Hah! I'm out!
Oh my god, they killed Satoshi!
Thursday, July 17, 2003
03:53 p.m.
Ok, well, not really. But they're slowly torturing his character to death. Man, as pretty as it is, as much as I adore the theme song, as nice as it is to have voice to put to the faces, I really could do without the DNAngel anime.
I mean, what genius decided that Dark should spend his time fighting evil rather than stealing things? Whose bright idea was it to have Krad show his face in episode 4? Where is the character development? (And what was UP with that unicorn?)
It's not a TOTAL loss, as I said it's really pretty and Miyamoto Shunichi's "byakuya ~True Light~" rocks my world, but if you're thinking about watching the anime INSTEAD of reading the manga, don't. Just don't.
Later days.